One Thing I'm Sure Of

Lately, God has speaking into my life like crazy. More like shouting. It's very obvious and has made Him very real. This has led me to ponder some questions today.

Is it because I've been needing more of Him lately?
I've wondered if maybe it's because I've suffered some pain lately, and maybe He is taking this opportunity to build me up in time of need. Maybe He is speaking in to my life because He's giving me a great story to be shared one day (which I truly believe). So is He speaking more? Or am I just listening more?

Has He always spoken like this and I just didn't notice?
This could be the case. Maybe I'm at a point where I know I'm needing more of Him so I'm noticing more of Him in my every day life. So what it boils down to is: is it truly that He's speaking more or that I'm just more aware.

I would probably say a little of both. I wholeheartedly believe that He's using this time in my life to speak so much truth that it's all going to boil up and flow out of me to be used for His glory. That's one thing He's been telling me lately: His story in my life will be my ministry. I have no idea what this means or what it will look like, but He has me convinced that everything I'm learning right now is meant to be shared. So yes, I really do think He's speaking more. I felt nothing but silence from Him for a few months, all to boil up to a big point of speaking into my life.

But I do also believe I'm more aware. I reached a point that I needed God more than ever before. So my ears have been more open lately. My eyes have been frequently searching for Him in every little thing I lay my eyes on. My senses are heightened to the movement of God in every single, little or huge thing that walks into my life. He sure is speaking more. But I am listening more

One thing I'm sure of is that every ounce of pain and suffering I've felt in my life is worth the closeness to God that comes through trial. That, I know for sure.